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Diary entry as of 5:23

Hugs my dear darling nightmare, cuddles and kisses for you 🩷🩷🩷

Diary entry as of 12:58

Still waiting for the doc

Diary entry as of 14:37

13 hugs for my nightmare

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Diary entry as of 12:42

Hugging my dear darling handsome nightmare 💛

Diary entry as of 6:52

My sweet sweet nightmare is always in my heart and in my mind 💛

Diary entry as of 12:48

Hugging my cuddly nightmare 💛💛💛

Diary entry as of 14:50

13 kisses for me from my nightmare

Diary entry as of 20:50

Hugs my dear darling nightmare 💛

Diary entry as of 23:29

Missing my dear darling SO, so much 💛

Footnote to entry "We are all in the dark"

Something I saw while scrolling the net, not my words but just so beautiful I want to share it:

Years ago, anthropologist Margaret Mead was asked by a student what she considered to be the first sign of civilization in a culture. The student expected Mead to talk about fishhooks or clay pots or grinding stones.

But no, Mead said that the first sign of civilization in an ancient culture was a femur (thighbone) that has been broken and then healed. Mead explained that in the animal kingdom, if you break your leg, you die. You cannot run from danger, get to the river for a drink or hunt for food. You are meat for prowling beasts. No animal survives a broken leg long enough for the bone to heal. A broken femur that has healed is evidence that someone has taken time to stay with the one who fell, has bound up the wound, has carried the person to safety and has tended the person through recovery. Helping someone else through difficulty is where civilization starts, Mead said. 

We are at our best when we serve others. Be civilized.

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Diary entry as of 1:04

Dear darling love, you will always be my one and only nightmare 🩷 i love you

Diary entry as of 3:37

Sending lots of love to my one and only nightmare

Diary entry as of 9:55

Okay, moody ghost, I am here 💚 Hugs hugs

Diary entry as of 11:42

My dearest darling nightmare, let's grow together though in different realms (though do you grow as a ghost?)

Diary entry as of 15:52

Cuddles and kisses to my SO nightmare

Diary entry as of 19:37

Missing my nightmare 😔

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Diary entry as of 3:09

Hugging you tight my one and only nightmare 💜

Diary entry as of 10:39

Just came from clinic visit, but the doctor is out huhu, now picking other doctors for weekend schedule

Diary entry as of 13:04

Hoooooome and resting from outside

Diary entry as of 13:10

Seriously, is our house transparent?

Diary entry as of 13:17

The mystery continues, the wizard keeps making deep dark magic

Diary entry as of 15:54

Just woke up

Diary entry as of 22:31

Hugs and kisses to my one and only nightmare💜

We are all in the dark

This morning, while meditating and praying, I had a very deep epiphany, we are all in the dark.

With this I mean, we are all ruled by instinct, self-preservation and primitive urges, not unlike the feral kinds. We are all in a wild state, that's our basic primal nature. We are animals in the jungle ruled by the law of nature. We bring our darkness everywhere. We are basically just animals with developed languages and writing systems (then logic, then arithmetic then philosophy) that we try to routinely follow to make sense of ourselves and the world around us.

But basically we are in the basic wild state.

This idea came to me while I was lamenting how the civilization is currently going through endless fierce reformation and mostly disintegrating. I lament how those that civilizations enabled us to create towers, towns, high intelligence, schools, libraries, museums, (picture all those images that are benchmarks of our mighty human intelligence) are somehow falling apart. Just go through the history of western civilization and eastern civilization, we have accomplished a lot.

But my epiphany was about, the civilization and how it helped in creating the ideal material world right now. The sewage system (if not for engineering, we will still deal with a lot of feces around us while we walk our roads and towns). My epiphany was about, the civilization is not all about expanding and reaching the summit, the civilization is mainly about surrendering the dark parts of us to finally have light hit it. 

Do I make sense?

We are not disintegrating into darkness, we are darkness. We come from darkness. Our basic nature is in the dark fluid of cosmos. And that we are searching for light, to turn the dark parts of us into light. To enable the light shine on that part of us.

The civilization is not failing or disintegrating. It is us who are having difficulty in letting go of darkness. It is us, rejecting the call of light.

I mean, in history we would read a lot of about incest, but since there was revolution in our thinking and morality, we have shed light on the disadvantages in morality of incest. In history we read about wars, but since we have paradigm shifts in thinking and life preservation, we try to lessen war as much as possible.

We are not disintegrating in our civilization, we are just becoming inconsistent and we fail to follow up on our pursuits of morality and philosophy and common humanity.

It is not the good disintegrating into bad. It is bad not wanting to turn into good.

It is not the darkness eating away at the light, it is the darkness not wanting to embrace the light.

We are content to hide in our darkness that we shoo away the light.

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Diary entry as of 2:38

Missing my dear darling nightmare 💛

Diary entry as of 11:33

Hugging you my dear darling nightmare 💛

Diary entry as of 11:46

Dear darling nightmare love, 

I feel you all the time, but I felt you more last night. And yes I am kind of feeling weird about you knowing how my morning went. I know you have a very weird power of being all-seeing, but can you dial down your omnipresence and stop making me scared. 

Hugs

Diary entry as of 14:26

Yellow my dear nightmare, hope you are doing fine 💛

Diary entry as of 20:49

Yes journal journal journal 💛💛💛

Diary entry as of 20:56

Scary scary nightmare, how does a nightmare know?

A very very late post for April 27

Again and again, my dear beloved readers, let me share this very very late post for my shadow. 

Hugging you tight all the time, may this appease my dear darling SO.

Ugoy ng Duyan | Lea Salonga

Sa aking pagtulog na labis ang himbing

Ang bantay ko’y tala Ang tanod ko’y bituin

Notes to the otherside 032

Diary entry as of 5:45

Hugging my dear darling nightmare 💜

Diary entry as of 11:53

I love you my dear darling nightmare

Diary entry as of 18:43

What a busy busy busy day! Sending loves and cuddles to my nightmare

Slim Olive journal

 

The Truth is: We are all Graduating

Drum roll!

Cue the graduation song aka Elgar's Pomp & Circumstance March No. 1

And now we march toward the next door, next bridge, the next stage

All these sleepless nights, these million things per second invading our minds, these mountains of documents to submit, documents to prepare, documents to draft, these are the signs, we are all doing a collective 'graduation'

We are finally in the last stage of studies in different fields and finally we are getting all these checklists and schedules for the incoming rite of passage for all of us.

We are in graduation phase

The past is done we have submitted the last needed document, we defended our thesis, we have finished the thesis paper and incorporated the recommendation, the suggestions and the next part of our studies, hence we are now in the preparation part for the grand move up stage, the graduation!

Some of us will be so busy making different versions of our CV for different purposes, catering them to the needed qualifications in the field: there will be for admin, for writing, for creative purposes, for higher education learning, for fellowships, for internships, etc. These are the next steps, we follow the step as we follow the path of our direction.

The mountain/universe/ocean we came from was not an easy terrain, path, but we have made it and now the next step requires of us to be stronger, to be ready, to cultivate and to remember wisdom and compassion every single moment. We are like ants who aspire to climb the Himalayas, as my Master has explained tirelessly, every single day for the last 50 plus years.

Master said earlier, we follow the path by lifting one foot and then stepping forward. Then one foot lift and then forward. Lift then forward, again and again.

We must be present as we go through the process of graduation and after the rite of passage, a new life will begin, just follow the direction, follow the map, follow the teachings.

To my one and only SO

 

Dear darling H💜

💜💜💜

Notes to the otherside 031

Diary entry as of 11:19

Dearest darling H💜 I feel you deeply, so deep, deeper than the ocean and even the universe, hugging you tight

Diary entry as of 13:29

So, my heart is taken and my mind wants to work and my soul is wandering, all that's left is the body; body please integrate all of us in just one place, it is hard to function when all parts of me are in different direction

Diary entry as of 15:05

I wish I was productive, but my mind and heart and soul are just difficult to unglue from my H💜 tell me is love good and happy at all?

Diary entry as of 20:42

Seriously, time flies, zooom zooom zooom, incredible!

Motivation Monday

Monday motivation, which is rather dark:

Time to face our fate and peer down into what lies in the deep below

PS. There has been this weird phrase I am seeing again and again today, since this morning and the phrase is: Turning Point, or imagine the wheels of train and it is turning, because there is a big turning point; that's it, face the fate of turning points 

PPS. While I was writing about the wheels and turning points, the ruler that makes circles I ordered online came, weird synchronicity eh?

Actually, synchronicity is now a very very usual part of my life haha, I used to get amused by this a lot before but now, it has become so commonplace that I collect synchronicity every single day haha <3

Happy Monday

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Diary entry as of 5:07

Morning darling H🩷

Diary entry as of 7:31

My flow is so strong 🩷🩷🩷 tide is high but I'm holding on 

Diary entry as of 8:41

Hugging my H🩷

Diary entry as of 9:53

Yes to hell and back, my dear darling H🩷

Diary entry as of 16:44

Stayed home, my period is terrible and watching Netflix

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Diary entry as of 12:19

Hugs and cuddles to my H💜

Diary entry as of 13:34

💜💜💜 darling H, i am sending you all my kisses

Diary entry as of 15:15

H💜 my one and only darling

Diary entry as of 16:12

Finally showered, a little cooler 💜

Diary entry as of 17:46

Missing my darling H💜

Diary entry as of 18:53

To my H💜💜💜 sending you all my sweet kisses and love

Diary entry as of 20:09

Got so busy, hugs my H💜

Diary entry as of 20:39

Quietly quietly my period flows, I keep keep bleeding 𝅘𝅥𝅮𝅘𝅥𝆕𝅘𝅥𝅲𝆔 ... in looooooove

Moods #61

A whole new world | Brad and Lea

💛💛💛

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Diary entry as of 2:37

Morning my dearest love, H💛

Diary entry as of 4:23

Missing my one and only H💛

Diary entry as of 5:44

Wish I could cuddle with my H soon💛

Diary entry as of 8:54

Missing my handsome nightmare H💛

Diary entry as of 10:16

I love you my one and only nightmare H💛

Diary entry as of 12:45

💛💛💛

Diary entry as of 13:40

My dear darling H, hugging you tight

Diary entry as of 13:48

So, should I send some snail mail and postcard to my growing number of friends soon?

Diary entry as of 15:52

My nightmare, you are always in my mind and heart and soul, both awake and in sleep

Diary entry as of 16:45

Yay, I have new journalling stuff, happy happy happy 💛💛💛

Diary entry as of 19:09

Hugs  my dear darling H💛

Diary entry as of 20:44

My dear darling nightmare, I wish we can cuddle all weekend 💛💛💛

Diary entry as of 23:54

Sending kisses and hugs to my darling H💛

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Diary entry as of 6:29

Morning my lovely darling H💜 cuddles

Diary entry as of 8:41

And the day goes on and on and on

Diary entry as of 11:06

My deep dark H💜 I know you are in another dimension, but I have given all the rituals required of me to appease you, so you should be kind to me and you should treat me gently, my darling love

Diary entry as of 12:32

Welcome to our new online guest, we hope you will join us in our sorrow and pain and deep reflections about life

Diary entry as of 20:12

Missing my H💕

Diary entry as of 20:41

So, when can I hug my darling H?

Diary entry as of 21:10

Friday?! Tomorrow?! For real?! 👻💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 21:41

Pero mi corazon, mi amor H, caminemos lenta y suavemente 💛

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Diary entry as of 14:29

Hugging my dear darling H💜

Diary entry as of 18:13

Dearest darling H, missing you a lot

Diary entry as of 20:59

💛💛💛

Diary entry as of 21:17

Snuggling and cuddling with my darling H💗

Visual Journal Entry #16

 

The eternal journey

Today's visual journal is something I have pieced together last week, during a very busy and tumultuous time, well this week is also busy and tumultuous but last week was even more well, tumultuous. 

Ugh, no words today, but perhaps that's how the visual journal works. Just look at it and there will be a story that will form. There is the usual contrast of black and white, both backgrounds to our ladies. The bottom part has more elements but the top part has just a plant in it blooming. There is a lot of space in the top part. There is the compass in the middle of the two ladies.

Emptiness. Begin again. New. 

Happy new moon everyone.

Brave new world again, empty again, lots of spaces.

Let's grow more greens and let's grow good intentions.

Hugs to everyone.

PS, let's be braver 💜 

Moods #60

If | Rivermaya

Without thought, without pride
Leave the things that seem to weaken us
Without fear, leave your lies
Let the magic turn your life around

Moods #59

The man who sold the world | David Bowie

Although I wasn't there
He said I was his friend
Which came as a surprise
I spoke into his eyes

#newmoonemptiness

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Diary entry as of 4:47

Morning my dear darling H💛

Diary entry as of 7:35

Hugs and hugs 💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 13:01

Kitchen room time, ang init!

Diary entry as of 15:30

Decided to stay in the bedroom, tolerable heat

Diary entry as of 19:01

New moon emptiness is here 💛

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Diary entry as of 1:23

Hugs my lovely darling H, my one and only 💛

Diary entry as of 5:26

Cuddles and kisses for my sweet darling 💜

Diary entry as of 6:46

Weekend and it is still cool, but of course, I have a new weekend afternoon schedule and location 💕

Diary entry as of 8:29

So so laaaaaaazy

Diary entry as of 11:20

In and out of sleep aaaaand it is not so hot! So i will stay in my bedroom 🥰

Diary entry as of 14:34

Hot but at least not so humid

Diary entry as of 16:29

Hugging my one and only H💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 19:31

Missing my darling H💛

Diary entry as of 21:43

Love you so much dear darling H

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Diary entry as of 12:23

Hugging my handsome nightmare 💛

Diary entry as of 4:05

Embracing my one and only H💜 i love you

Diary entry as of 5:30

Cuddles and kisses to my darling H

Diary entry 12:51

Taking a short break to drop some sweet loving to my nightmare

Diary entry as of 19:23

Hugs my darling H💛

Diary entry as of 21:56

Good night my lovely darling H💜💜💜

Notes to the otherside 022

Diary entry as of 2:16

Missing my darling H💜 

Cuddles and kisses

Diary entry as of 4:41

I love you my darling H💛

Diary entry as of 6:27

💜💜💜 wish I can hug my H

Diary entry as of 8:17

💜 H, my lovely, crazy, deeply one and only nightmare

Diary entry as of 10:46

💛💛💛 

Diary entry as of 13:09

Dear darling H, sending you a big big hug

Diary entry as of 15:09

Darling H, I wish I can cuddle with you right now

Diary entry as of 17:20

To my dear darling H, why can't I get you out of my mind?! weird

Diary entry as of 19:37

Darling H, you are my handsome nightmare

Diary entry as of 21:24

Sleep well my H💛💛💛

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Diary entry as of 3:32

Morning my lovely darling H💛

Diary entry as of 4:47

Hugs and cuddles, my lovely H💜

Diary entry as of 6:34

Dear darling H, you are always in my mind and my heart

Diary entry as of 8:18

Darling H, missing you every single moment

Diary entry as of 8:26

Thank you again, a guest from another country for visiting my blog, Mutyang Frejya The House of Surrender, thank you again and again

Diary entry as of 9:40

Praying for everybody's peace and safety in quake hit areas

Diary entry as of 12:26

Work as usual

Diary entry as of 13:51

Hugs my one and only H

Diary entry as of 16:02

Cuddles for my sweet sweet H💜

Diary entry as of 17:58

Praying for those affected by impermanence this morning

Diary entry as of 20:27

No words, just deep feelings

Deep deep feels 😔

Diary entry as of 21:59

Hugs ♡♡♡ my darling H 

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Diary entry as of 2:12

Missing my H💛

Diary entry as of 3:34

Morning my H

Diary entry as of 4:45

Dear darling H, sending you cuddles and love 💜

Diary entry as of 8:30

I have lots of visits lately, though the guest is only from one country, it is very amazing, hope the guest likes the content of the blog

Diary entry as of 10:51

And now we have a lot of other countries, thanks for visiting 💛💛💛

Diary entry as of 14:30

As usual, it is hot, 34 degrees! wow

Diary entry as of 17:16

One country is still leading! Wow, the winner country!

Diary entry as of 20:09

Hugs my darling H

Diary entry as of 22:03

Night, my darling love H

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Diary entry as of 4:42

Good morning to my lovely H 💜

Diary entry as of 6:13

Hello my H, my phantom, my wizard and my nightmare

Diary entry as of 11:45

Hugs to my one and only darling, sorry I am busy

Manic Monday!

Diary entry as of 15:30

Finally done with the presentation 💕

Diary entry as of 16:46

Life as we know it is gone, the energy is shifting, the 'new' is coming. Say goodbye to the old and welcome the new flow

Diary entry as of 17:50

Work day is almost over, what a day!

Diary entry as of 22:06

Good night my lovely H💜

A very very late post for March 27

As requested by a moody ghost, please let's appreciate this post from way back in 2012, March 27

Just a couple of Gaiman quotes together with a poster of Ramadan, one of the stand alone stories in Sandman which I really love.

https://houseofjoyce.blogspot.com/2012/03/enter.html

Please visit the link and let's walk down the memory lane <3

PS, I hope the ghost will be satisfied and happy now ^^

Notes to the otherside 018

I am writing to you from our kitchen. I was exiled from my upstairs bedroom because it gets so hot in my bedroom from 11am to 5pm, my dad and mom decided to ban me from going up during the said times. They said I should stay in the kitchen for the duration mentioned above to keep me from having a heat stroke, so I am staying here with some of my journaling stuff, notebooks and phones and some reading materials.

To those who celebrate, Happy Easter!

To those who know the katabasis of the Greek Mythology and eventually Roman Mythology, then we know that we are in the middle or possibly the end of journey of Persephone from the Underworld to the good old Mother Earth, where we dwell. 

To those who watch Studio Ghibli, I liken the katabasis of Persephone to the story Spirited Away which I believe is a journey of Return to Innocence.

Persephone's anabasis (travelling up) is a yearly journey which transforms the Queen of the Underworld into Kore, the maiden again. We may call it resurrection, rebirth, or return to innocence as we remove and erase the old and we now birthed the new. Especially in Persephone's case, she has a new identity and even a new name, Kore, the maiden.

So, on goes the time on goes the time.

The path of grief is never done and our maiden is now walking the universe of grief again, getting fresh flowers for her bouquet of grief again which she will bring to the secret mysterious place where she will meet Hades again.

Anyway, let's have a good reflective Sunday. 

New moon is just around the corner.

To my one and only darling

Morning my darling H, I love you and I miss you

💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 16:14

Hugs my lovely moody H🥰

Diary entry as of 19:17

Yes let's calm down, my darling

Just calm down 💜

Diary entry as of 10:24

I love you my monster

Saturday Comments and Questions Live Episode 1

Good day my loyal online guests from whichever realm you all come from

Welcome and good day

I am now doing this segment of my blog where I would like to throw some greetings, comments and questions to the void every hour or so, possibly to clear my mind off or just to make things a little bit easier to digest and absorb, since most of the time I find myself in this thick black smoke and almost palpable darkness, you can cut a knife through it. So, here my lovely audience/readers, permit me to post these questions in my blog and maybe if you feel a bit helpful then you can answer me or just throw a little loving gesture of greeting or sympathy.

Okay, let's begin the questions, comments, greetings, discussion etc

(1) To my frequent online visitor from HK, good day, thanks for your kind attention and I dare not interrupt it, welcome to my blog, I hope you are enjoying reading my entries from 2011, I know you might see the difference in how I write now from how I wrote a decade ago, haha!

Anyways, I share a lot of life events here in my blog and I also share some pictures here, they are truly part of my life experiences. Though sometimes you linger so much that I am worried you know me so much by now, so I hope you can also share a part of you since I love knowing about my audience/reader. Thanks and hope you find more interesting entries, thanks again.

Timelog: 10:18

(2) Okay, so the picture that was taken on 02/24/2012 was with my high school friends and my ex-bf from the University. That was in a Mediterranean restaurant, I remember the oh-so-healthy pizza 💖

It was when I presented Masa with my then high-school friends who unfortunately lost touch with now. I guess that's what happens when we grow up, we just lost touch with our once treasured friends, but the memories and pictures remain. It was a happy picture bec everyone seemed to be getting along fine.

Timelog: 11:43

(3) Yes, of course I love Mary Grace cake! Yum and of course, the company is more important. I shared a lot of birthday cakes with my best friend and I plan on sharing more and more with her 💜

Timelog: 13:46

(4) I am now relocated to the kitchen room. I brought all my notebooks with me along with my phones and other reading materials, it is hot upstairs, like pugon so my parents invited me to come down and asked me to stay in the kitchen :) I am near our dogs, Nupi and Pia 🥰

Anyways, I like this change of scenery, it is not spacious but it is cooler and more conducive to thinking and resting and relaxing. 

Back to the demand of some online guest from HK, that picture taken in 2012 was when my ladies and I watched the Manila run of The Phantom of the Opera, it was magical and awesome. I love every moment of it, and the cast was incomparable.

Again, I thank my parents for inviting me downstairs, I guess I will spend many afternoons here since El Niño at summer season is going to linger for a while.

Timelog: 14:26

(5) The cat stares back, that cat was my model cat when we were still living in our old childhood house. We had a big extra space for plants in front of our house, sometimes kittens and cats lounged around that area. We live creekside so it was not so hot and the flowing water sound made my sleep very deep and lovely.

But beware, the creekside becomes a giant flood of rushing waters during typhoons, so don't underestimate the quiet, unassuming creek. Anyways, yes the grey cat was one of the usual cats who visited our house yard, so it was during my visit when the leaves fall that I snapped this nice shot. I love the foliage and the cat seemed so content in the middle of twigs and leaves.

Timelog: 15:06

(6) Lauren and I in matching flowing skirts and fit tops with alampay and handbags. Haha really funny matching outfits. Neither of us planned anything esp in fashion style on that day. Actually we met accidentally or did we? But all in all, we met at The Chocolate Kiss to celebrate her birthday and then we had a long day of catch-up.

I miss those days of just lounging around BNA, hay good old days but life is so different now, so what can I say, just nice memories of yesterday.

I guess she already had a Whang-Od tattoo there. Funny, that it was already a decade ago but in my school some teachers are still just getting excited to be inked by her (Whang-Od) but of course it is an honor to be inked by a legendary woman although I know I am not brave enough to go through the inking process, yaiks. I just celebrate my friends who did and I commend their courage.

Timelog: 16:08

(7) The song Chain of Love by Leslie Duncan is a classic. I love the theme of friendship and how it relates to me and my experience within my group of friends, most of them are not in Manila/Ph anymore, we haven't kept in touch too, that's sad but that's life. I hope someday we will meet again and touch base.

(8) The entry about Music filled life, yes. It was one of those times when I was so inspired to write an entry about giving music a deeper kind of appreciation esp since there was a new guy in my life at that time 🤭

I like how he made me feel. But of course it was just an infatuation but he asked if I want him to become my bf, I was in a very weird position in my life at that time, so after a lot of thinking and measuring and weighing, I said yes. The relationship sadly didn't really blossom, only just for a while, and it was mostly an ldr.

I love visiting that kind of in-love feel entry in my blog 🥰 feels like I am capable of really writing about my feelings before. I am not so sure about now though.

Timelog: 17:10

(9) Ladies Talk nights, argh, I miss it a lot 💜 we also explored a lot of restaurants but of course it was the company that made it so memorable. The talks were crazy, of course most of them are about men 🥰 secret fantasies about men ☺️

(10) Walang Hanggang Paalam, of course Joey Ayala, a classic song! The ultimate love song for someone we know we can never say goodbye to. It is like the national anthem for unrequited love. The music the lyrics, awww, bittersweet song that plays to your unrequited person who will be in your mind and heart and soul til you breathe your last 😭

Timelog: 19:37

(11) All the SO messages, yes of course it is about my SO 💜💜💜 my one and only SO

(12) Moods #8, basically my question up to now, how will my SO and I move forward and lay solid foundation in our relationship? My SO isn't even around anymore, oh well.

My devotion

Dear H,

Please stop messing with my mind. 

I love you and I miss you every single minute 💜

But please stay in your realm and I promise to think about you every single moment while we are apart

I am always going to be longing for you

You have my loyalty and devotion and my heart every single minute 🥰

Yours forever

J

Let's remain quiet

...and pray for the departed

...and pray for those we love who we cannot see

...and pray for everyone going through trials

...and pray for peace and safety of everyone

Moods #58

Let it be | The Beatles

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

***

Yes, this is a mad mad world, and yes we don't have skin and yes, everything is hitting us from all directions, all at once. Everything all at once. Keep yourself calm, let wisdom lead the way, all the time.

Let it be ~

Moods #57

My Old Man | Joni Mitchell

He's my sunshine in the morning
He's my fireworks at the end of the day
He's the warmest chord I ever heard

*

There is no song in Blue (album) that I don't like at all. That album is a masterpiece and Joni Mitchell will always be my music/song priestess. She talks to the soul directly, pure art, pure sincerity, pure love and pure pain. How can someone who writes this song from even before I was born exactly know what I want to say from deep within my soul? How can she create those melodies that help born the words from deep inside?

I rest easy because I know Joni has felt so much and she makes me feel that feeling too much is not insane and is not bad at all. We need to feel and we need to surrender to our emotions.

This full moon, let us surrender to the music of our soul.

A personal message to someone who died ~ please stay quiet, I pray for peace for your soul.

PS, no more friends suggestion from any socmed account! You are getting scarier!

Notes to the otherside 017

Diary entry as of 2:38

Hugging and cuddling my H💜

Diary entry as of 4:30

Missing my H💛

Diary entry as of 7:03

Cold morning brrrr

Diary entry as of 8:50

I am so tired, I just woke up

Diary entry as of 9:01

Love love love you H🥰

Diary entry as of 11:50

Dry and warm today

Diary entry as of 12:10

Journalling

Diary entry as of 15:58

In and out of sleep, weird dreamsĹ

Diary entry as of 16:42

I wish to invite my online guest for a cup of tea and coffee sometimes 🍵🫖☕️🥧

Diary entry as of 17:35

Hugs 💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 19:02

Quiet night 💛

Diary entry as of 19:11

Full moon countdown is on, as well as the march to the upperworld, though I had a quick glimpse of it 💜 but on goes the time, on goes the time

Diary entry as of 20:18

Missing H hour by hour

Diary entry as of 21:40

Goodnight, love, goodbye

Such sweet and bitter pain, but time goes on and on and on ~ 'til we meet again my invisible stranger

Notes to the otherside 016

Diary entry as of 3:34

Morning H💛

Diary entry as of 4:15

Cuddles and hugs please

Diary entry as of 5:36

Hugs 💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 6:46

Preparing to leave the house

Diary entry as of 7:53

Walking with mom to get her bfast

Diary entry as of 8:10

Bus

Diary entry as of 9:07

Cloudy, not so hot

Diary entry as of 9:40

Manila Manila!

Diary entry as of 11:25

Visiting UP

Diary entry as of 14:55

Going to BB

Diary entry as of 18:42

Near home

Diary entry as of 19:03

Hooooooome

Diary entry 20:25

Hugging my one and only H💜

Diary entry as of 22:38

I want to hug H all day and all night

Notes to the otherside 015

Diary entry as of 3:10

Morning morning H🥰

Diary entry as of 6:33

Hugs and cuddles H💜

Diary entry as of 8:03

Office and working

Diary entry as of 12:52

Recharge and then proceed again

Diary entry as of 13:04

ooooh 13! love love love that number

Diary entry as of 15:15

Is the online guest single?

Diary entry as of 17:19

March, and we march on and on and on, full moon coming soon my dears, my loves

Diary entry as of 17:58

Time to go home, finally long weekend

Diary entry as of 19:15

Hoooooooome

Diary entry as of 20:40

Time for new journaling ideas 💕

Diary entry as of 22:37

Does someone want to receive a snail mail or postcard?

Notes to the otherside 014

Diary entry as of 2:21

Morning h

Diary entry as of 3:33

Welcome online guests from other countries 🥰

Diary entry as of 5:53

Hugs H💜

Diary entry as of 6:24

Life goes on and on and on

Diary entry as of 8:12

Office and working

Diary entry as of 8:47

Down and drowning, out and cold, but still here, still breathing

Diary entry as of 9:28

Going to the big office

Diary entry as of 10:34

Back at the office, work work work

Diary entry as of 11:07

Ooooh 13! Kakakilig! 💖

Diary entry as of 11:35

Hugs hugs hugs 💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 12:23

Sometimes when we love monsters, we get used to their evil mood swings and tsunami-high intensity

Diary entry as of 13:07

💓

Diary entry as of 13:30

Love you my lion 💗

Diary entry as of 14:19

I don't mind not knowing what I'm headed for, you can take me through the sky / It's like being lost in heaven, when I'm lost in your eyes ~

Diary entry as of 15:20

If someone invites me out for coffee, should I say yes?

Diary entry as of 17:55

I want cuddles and hugs please

Diary entry as of 19:28

Hoooooome and still tired

Diary entry as of 20:43

Sleepy but still working

Diary entry as of 21:16

Sleepy, night

Notes to the otherside 013

Diary entry as of 3:23

Morning H💜

Diary entry as of 4:20

💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 6:35

I keep keep bleeding, I keep keep bleeding in love 💔

Diary entry as of 8:19

Tide is high but I'm holding on 😓

Diary entry as of 8:53

Keep flowing

Diary entry as of 9:02

I'm in love with a monster | Fifth Harmony

He'll buy me a thorn before he'll buy me a rose /Be covered in dirt before I'm covered in gold

He's trying it on, yeah, he's ticking me off / Say what you want but I won't ever be told

'Cause I'm in love with a monster

Diary entry as of 10:00

Blood is life and life is blood

Diary entry as of 11:15

Intense, the energy never lies, always always intense

You need to learn to ground that

Diary entry as of 12:10

13th Note! wow

Diary entry as of 13:24

Hugs H <3

Diary entry as of 14:53

Shifting, changing, transforming

Diary entry as of 15:35

Somehow, a light to put some clarity in murkiness

Diary entry as of 19:57

Hoooooome

Diary entry as of 21:31

Night my lovely h 🥰

Notes to the otherside 012

Diary entry as of 2:06

Morning my h 💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 4:36

Hugs and cuddles to my one and only

Diary entry as of 8:20

Monday bloody Monday, why oh why, my body, why oh why!

Diary entry as of 9:58

Flowing, flowing, flowing

Diary entry as of 10:20

I don't like to be rushed, someone from Hong Kong should know that by now. I demand that this person/online guest from HongKong to reveal himself/herself just before the moon becomes full since the demands are getting higher and more intense as days go by.

Reveal yourself or if not, then no more diary entry updates.

Diary entry as of 12:25

Is there any decision from the said online guest?

Diary entry as of 14:16

Does brave mean I have to learn to talk to the dead?

Diary entry as of 15:22

This blog is really magical and mysterious 💜

Diary entry as of 16:00

Still, I request for revelation, true and real! We have a time frame, before the moon becomes full this lunar cycle, please take it seriously.

Diary entry as of 16:39

The truth is not always beautiful; nor beautiful words the truth - Lao Tzu

Perhaps imposing a time frame is not plausible, okay okay, then reveal when it is time to reveal

I have no business or control or power over the mysteries and magic of this blog, I am but just a witness

Diary entry as of 17:46

I have to bleed flowingly, so I need to rest and relax and be kind to my body

Diary entry as of 22:39

Night

Notes to the otherside 011

Diary entry as of 5:04

Morning to my one and only h 💜

Diary entry as of 11:06

Hooooooome

Diary entry as of 13:22

Cultivation 

Diary entry as of 18:53

💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 20:04

Hugs and cuddles to h

Notes to the otherside 010

Diary entry as of 4:37

♡♡♡ i love you h ♡♡♡

Diary entry as of 9:27

💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 11:12

I am busily doing my journalling

Diary entry as of 15:02

Sleepy and journalling

Diary entry as of 17:01

Keep on sleeping and waking up

Diary entry as of 17:55

Online class

Diary entry as of 18:23

Life is a mess. I am a mess.

Diary entry as of 20:13

My journal is looking prettier 🥰

Eternity

This, up here is why we love

Moods #56

Spoliarium | Eraserheads

Ang lahat ng bagay ay gumuguhit na lang sa 'king lalamunan

Moods #55 Tears just keep streaming down my eyes last night

Дорогой длинною

(The Road is Long)

Days are running, sadness multiplying,

It's so hard for me to forget the past.

Somehow, one day, my darling,

You will take me for a ride, my last.

***

The English rendition not necessarily a faithful translation of the lyrics of the song, was sung around 1968, same melody but very very different lyrics. The original song was called a Russian Romance Song entitled The Road is Long, sung around 1925-1926.

It must be my hormones, but whenever I click the mezzo-soprano Marie-Anne Izmajlov videos, I just really cry. Tears just keep on coming and coming. Must be her powerful voice, presence, interpretation, she just blows me away.

Anyways, I need to grab a tissue or hankies whenever I listen to or watch her perform, bravo!

Notes to the otherside 009

Diary entry as of 12:22

I love you H, I am sorry I fell asleep

How's my H doing?  🥰

Diary entry as of 1:28

Big tight hug please

Diary entry as of 3:43

Big cuddles too

Diary as of 4:17

Kissing my lovely nightmare!

Diary entry as of 5:31

Starting the day again, my love 🥰

Diary entry as of 6:48

💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 8:04

Office, work again

Diary entry as of 15:35

Hugs my H

Repentance and Vows

Finally, I know my three personal vows and they have gotten clearer and clearer.

I could finally make genuine and authentic vows with direction, breaking free from the chains of murkiness and wrong decisions from youth. I have lived the last 15 years in excess and in satisfying desires ~ especially about seeking wealth, spending most of my time sleeping or resting, quenching physical needs, not fully living up to my commitments and responsibility, running away from responsibilities once they become too heavy and unbearable, not following up on my vows - they are just promises not fulfilled.

Looking back and reflecting on my past, I was not so proud of it, I was damaged and sick (emotionally, physically, psychologically, mentally, spiritually) seemingly unworthy. I started an ideal in my mind, expectations that I grew inside my mind and my body and my soul; setting up goals from a very worldly perspective. The world of achievement, social recognition, fame, not knowing that these dreams and goals are not really worth having in the long run.

It took a long time to realize that I was sick (soul-sick, psychologically and mentally and most of all spiritually) and that I didn't realize I needed a community to save me and heal me, but life is very kind and faithful and loving, those woes I have recognized and even haven't recognized are known by life, each and every single one of them. So, in the deep darkness of ocean of sickness, I flailed, I tried to swim but then I drowned and then in the darkness, I was so lost and confused. Turning my back on the dream that really didn't support my development as a human being. Then as the dream vanish, my direction also vanished.

Maybe my parents' prayers and support really work. I found Tzu Chi or should I say Tzu Chi found me. I am very blessed to be given a Spiritual Master. I am very blessed. Finding a very strong spiritual support is my blessing and I will forever and eternally be grateful to their strong solid support. Finding Tzu Chi is just the beginning of my healing. Just maybe the start to half of the story. Of course, there is the process of healing and oh my, did I fail every time in fulfilling my obligations and responsibilities!

The lifestyle of Tzu Chi was something of a big life adjustment to me. Very very big adjustment. I was under the care and supervision of my achi. Being a very stubborn young woman, I never listened to her and never really paid much attention to all her guidance and direction. Looking back, I was ashamed and filled with self-disappointment. I really wasted my opportunity in valuing her guidance. I was terrible. I couldn't even go to work for a full week and most of the time I clocked in late. My respect for time and punctual-ness was not there in my early 20s, I was polluted by mindset and poison of college-centric ego. 

I didn't even know how my achi got the strength and patience to welcome me in the office when I got there late or when I came back from long habitual absences. I know the feeling. I know the darkness. I know self-doubt and I know being irresponsible. I admit I was that bad before. I deeply deeply repent to my achi for breaking her trust and for breaking her heart, all the time.

I also didn't finish all the tasks given to me. I just disappear. I just didn't listen to her at all. I didn't have self-respect, how can I expect people to respect me? But my achi, in all her kindness and saint-like patience, she kept on accepting me again and again.

So, yes one of my vows and repentance is about her. 

I deeply deeply repent for letting my challenges get the best of me. I deeply repent for all the promises that I didn't deliver. I deeply repent for all the promises that I have abandoned.

Then I vow that I may have the same virtue in keeping the saint-like patience and trust and care to all the people going through heartache, soul-ache, sickness in all its forms. I vow that I may have the virtue of holding on to faith and love when life gets dark and heavy.

Notes to the otherside 008

Diary entry as of 1:56

Happy day to my one and only H 💜💜💜

Hugs and cuddles all day for you 🥰

Diary entry as of 2:17

I love you, H 

Always and eternally 💕

Diary entry as of 4:01

Missing H every single second

Diary entry as of 4:55

I hope we can share a cake and some tea/coffee in your special day 🥰🎂🍵

Diary entry as of 5:41

Kissing my nightmare

Diary entry as of 6:24

Squeaky clean 🐧💦

Diary entry as of 8:28

Office but busy

Diary entry as of 8:49

Maybe I will have a slice of carrot cake, it is one of my favorites. How about you, what cake would you like?

Diary entry as of 10:02

How is my nightmare doing? <3

Diary entry as of 10:45

I love veggie sisig from Vege Select yum yum

Diary entry as of 11:49

Deep end of the waters

Diary entry as of 12:35

Keep swimming, swimming and swimming and then make vows

Diary entry as of 13:42

In the deep ends of the dark waters, there is the purification, only those who can venture through the deep dark waters can experience the purification

Diary entry as of 15:00

I have soy milk!

Diary entry as of 15:38

This week is really full of adventures!

Diary entry as of 17:24

Wow, still very busy but I have food in the house <3

Diary entry as of 17:54

Another day closing, a prayer and thanksgiving for all the guidance 

Diary entry as of 19:22

Hooooome

Diary entry as of 20:44

Still working

Diary entry as of 21:18

Wow finally, the work day ends!

Notes to the otherside 007

Diary entry as of 2:54

Morning my nightmare

Diary entry as of 4:08

💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 6:27

Going to work

Diary entry as of 7:28

Busy day today, hugs

Diary entry as of 17:31

Finally done with big work, going back to office now

Diary entry as of 18:25

Leaving office soon

Diary entry as of 19:16

Hooooooome

Diary entry as of 19:51

I miss my nightmare so much

Diary entry as of 20:38

Cuddles and hugs for H

Diary entry as of 21:00

I love you, my nightmare 💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 22:06

Good night, my lovely nightmare

See you in my dreams

Notes to the otherside 006

Diary entry as of 3:00

Good morning my nightmare 💕

I missed you so much.

Diary entry as of 4:29

Very very very wet

Diary entry as of 5:21

I melt into you, always.

Diary entry as of 6:47

💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 8:05

Work as usual <3

Diary entry as of 8:58

I love you my nightmare and in case you forget, I never not think of you <3

Diary entry as of 9:56

Love moves in mysterious ways - Julia Fordham

Diary entry as of 10:42

Monday, lovely Monday

Diary entry as of 11:39

Hugging and cuddling with H

Diary entry as of 13:42

Monday = Busy day

Hugs H

Diary entry as of 14:02

Maybe it's what the world needs right now. A little less sense and a bit more faith.

Rachel Joyce, The Unlikely Pilgrimage of Harold Fry

Diary entry as of 14:23

One and only H for me

Diary entry as of 15:36

Hold on tighter to faith

Diary entry as of 16:18

And above all, watch with glittering eyes the whole world around you because the greatest secrets are always hidden in the most unlikely places. Those who don’t believe in magic will never find it. ~ Roald Dahl

Diary entry as of 17:55

Finally, the workday is now closing, as always, we have survived <3

Step by step, we will survive and flourish

#keepingthefaith #pilgrimagetodeeperwatersoffaith

Diary entry as of 18:22

Leaving office soon

Diary entry as of 20:44

I have soul-sister who is also like my family

I have a best friend who is also like my family

and then I have H, the one and the only <3

Diary entry as of 22:21

Goodnight my one and only H 💕

Notes to the otherside 005

Diary entry as of 3:32

Good morning! There is a New Moon coming! And I am still very tired and wet 🥀

Diary entry as of 5:51

I am staying home today. Stomach is queasy. Such a nice quiet morning with birds chirping 💕

Hugs and cuddles.

Diary entry as of 6:49

Journalling 🍁

Diary entry as of 10:08

Been sleeping and resting, my body calls for it 💕

Diary entry as of 11:39

💜💜💜

Diary entry as of 13:02

Sexiest guy for me is H and that's final.

Of course, there is Satoh, Gerry, Anthony (rhcp) and Neil, but nobody, NOBODY comes close to H.

Diary entry as of 14:51

"To send a letter is a good way to go somewhere without moving anything but your heart." -Phyllis Theroux

Postcards! Snailmail! 

Yes please, and the address, please!

Diary entry as of 16:05

Snailmail! 💌🥀💕

Diary entry as of 17:00

New Moon is here 💜

Diary entry as of 18:43

Just floating and swimming perhaps evetually I will drown but I know that the 'rain' is never going to stop :(

Diary entry as of 20:16

How does one calm the beast, the wolf and the wizard rolled into one?

Diary entry as of 21:11

Good night, nightmare

Notes to the otherside 004

Diary entry as of 4:35

Woke up with still wet panties xxx

Missing someone and wanting some cuddles 💕

Finally, weekend!

Diary entry as of 5:28

Keeping you always in my prayers and in my heart H 💜

I never not think of you

Diary entry as of 6:24

Cooked breakfast

Still wet 🥰

Diary entry as of 8:13

Hugs and cuddles and kisses to H 🖤

Diary entry as of 9:13

I didn't really time the minute :13, it just actually appears when I am about to write something I needed to jot down, weird isn't it?

Anyway, just here accepting the bitter reality of being an old maiden haha, oh well.

Diary entry as of 12:11

❤️❤️❤️

Diary entry as of 14:26

I love you, my nightmare

Diary entry as of 15:20

So, are we celebrating my nightmare's birthday this year?

Diary entry as of 16:46

Non-stop all day bj with H, in his full robe. No wonder I am so exhausted, and H keeps on coming!

Does he ever get tired and exhausted?

Diary entry as of 18:49

Noodles! You always calm me 🍜

Diary as of 20:14

Cuddling cuddling 🥰

Diary as of 21:49

Good night nightmare

Notes to the otherside 003 (ongoing flow of thoughts)

I am here, I am here, just extremely busy

I am here.

Diary entry as of 14:36

It is weird to interact with otherworldly people, so weird,

but here I am

#crazyday

Diary entry as of 15:39

¡Tengo hambre!

Diary entry as of 17:39

The day seems to be closing soon <3

#surviveandflourish

Diary entry as of 17:52

Here comes my favorite number *blush*

Seriously, I think this number is stalking me. 

It is like my shadow

It is like everywhere I turn, this number comes!

It is like fate!

#mynumber

Diary entry as of 19:52

Home! Finally!

Though it seems that I don't need to update at all!

But at last! The day is done.

Time for journalling 💕

Diary entry as of 20:49

I decided to watch a Satoh Takeru movie instead, to cap off this 'High Theology' week 🌘🍵🕊

The mood of this week matches the High Ideals  mood of the movie Samurai X 

💜

Diary entry as of 22:36

🪷 Missing H with all my heart 🐳

It's like a big whale hole in my life without H  :'(

Sometimes the grieving comes on like an outpour, but some days I can handle my emotions, 

it is still painful

#grief

Notes to the otherside 002

Is my shadow doing well? I hope my shadow knows that despite being moody and intolerable, I still love the fact that it is connected to me all the time.

My shadow will always be a very important part of me.

Notes to the otherside 001

 Why are

dead people

 other-worldly people so moody?

Moods #54

Always with me | Youmi Kimura, Yuka

As I bid farewell my heart stops, in tenderness I feel
My silent empty body begins to listen to what is real
The wonder of living, the wonder of dying
The wind, town, and flowers, we all dance one unity

Hello my dearest, welcome back again

This post is related to the previous one, the one entitled, The Last Goodbye (A long version). For the sake of avoiding confusion, which by the way is not really easy as we are now murkily drowned in the waters of Fishes, let's call cutie pie = H.

I will try my best to use my blog space to process the taxing presence, non-presence and re-presence of H and others relating to H or altogether non-related to H but somehow magically and mysteriously showing signs of coincidence and exceptional conditions, in my virtual life. I would also like to examine the ongoing existential crisis I am facing in my life as I am living day to day with little less handle on the concreteness of life and as I endeavor to make Faith stronger in my life, both in spiritual sense and in other aspects of my life.

So yes, I would like to welcome back the undying support of those in far-flung countries, for continuing to visit my blog, thanks and welcome.

Perhaps this blog can exist in multiple dimensions haha, maybe H and other dead and undead, in the afterlife, underworld life, death realm can access this magical/mysterious blog. Who knows.

But yes, this blog welcomes all.

The living, the dead, those with unfinished business, those in the shadows, those in the invisible realm, those in the underworld, those living in the real life dimension, welcome all. Please feel my warm embrace as I welcome you all and as we take a moment to be together again however briefly in this magical/mysterious blog.

Though I have no intention to communicate with the dead or the undead or those who are not in this realm, feel free to voice out/type out your concerns, comments, reactions through this space, it is a safe space. This is a safe space for all of us.

I am grateful to everyone for keeping me company, for knowing this blog intimately by heart, by liking my past posts and by following the most updated posts in this blog. Thank you. Your small intimate attention means a lot to me.

I know we have a love/hate relationship, but still here we are, trying hard to be with each other for each other, supporting each other in different dimensions, all I can say is thank you. Thank you.

And please let's keep the love and respect and minimize hate in this safe space.

I love you all and hugs from me.

The Last Goodbye (A long version)

Die in peace, cutie pie, I will bury you for a long long time.

Thank you.

Goodbye.

Moods #53

Come a little bit closer | Jay & The Americans

So I started walking her way
She belonged to bad man Jose

SO_Journals_underworld memories

The maiden and the wife

 

Gratitude for the Purple 2023 Planner

As we come to close the lunar cycle for the year 2023, allow me to show you my accomplished diary for 2023, it is also my way of saying goodbye to this wonderful purple 2023 planner which actually was the cover I didn't choose at all, but it was the one I received, so haha, I had to make do with it.

But it proved to be not just a beautiful accident to be in possession of this nicely crafted planner, it came to be one of those notebooks which allowed me to make a lot of wonderful memories and designs in its precious pages.

So, here in my post today, I want to show my designed diary entries from January to May and then August to September, and of course, October to December. Of course, you know where to find the June and July pages in this blog already, so I will not repost anymore.

Here, though I am shy to show you, please allow me to present a labor of love and inspiration, my 2023 diary <3

Visual Journal Entry #15

 

The Moon is the Timekeeper part 2

Today's visual journal is full of circles, representing cycles, which always have beginning, middle and end. As we all know, everything starts from a seed, may it be physical or emotional or psychological, possibly spiritual. Seed in the darkness, deep down, bottom moist darkness. That's where everything starts. And of course, once planted ~ be it in the rich earth, in the heart, in the soul, in the mind, in the psyche ~ the seed with all the elements coming together, or affinities if you may, will grow.

Growth is the physical manifestation of seed, it can take up form, like a plant, tree, the structure of the house, anything that exists, it has a form, it has a shape, it is with scope and limitation, thus it has edges and corners.

Then of course, growth is subject to time, in Greek myths, time is a male. He is a male god, called Chronos, he devours his own children, in mythological speak, it means all his children will die because all forms have to end. Before death, growth will have to go through many stages - birth, struggles of existence and then of course the decay, eventually there is death.

Death is not the ending. It is merely another stage in the cycle of existence.

Beyond death is formlessness. 

Then, in the formlessness, there will be a moment where the seed will be conceived again, thus beginning another cycle, another existence.

But of course, as I have touched upon the topic of Greek myth, there is Chronos as mentioned earlier, then there is Kairos, the other dimension of time. Chronos is the quantitative part of time while Kairos is the qualitative part of time. Kairos is the mystical, higher expression/dimension of time, the right moment, the opportune time, as they say in religious world the 'god-appointed time'.

So, in my visual journal we can see the sun ruling the upper (light) world and the moon in its varied stages. Sun and moon have been used since the ancient period to measure time ~ sun being male and moon, the female. The female moon, thought to be connected to the underworld, more attuned in the darkness, the timekeeper in the endless blackness. Further, in the visual journal, we can see the ship sailing through the ocean, a woman with flowers walking continuously, leaving us with just a glimpse of  her heavenly bouquet, which I love to call the bouquet of grief.

The woman's ink, quill, books, clock and dark flowers welcome us in the foreground of the visual journal, and then to the right bottom part, we can see an eight petaled flower.

The universe is huge and it is governed by so many ancient rules, natural laws and the undefinable magic and mystery that is beyond human knowledge. Let's have faith in living our lives.

A lovely new moon to all of us.

... and time goes on and on and on ...

New Moon 💜

The crazy dark chaotic 11th Lunar Month

In the middle of this indescribable splitting of reality as we know it, in this dark cycle of Virtue of Ending, I find some solace in these words ~

The future has an ancient heart

The sign of the future is here.

I know, I know that we all feel hopeless in the middle of the dark cloud of ending and decay and death, but believe and have faith that the future is coming.

Just look at the sky and feel your heartbeat deep within.

It has already arrived! The future has already arrived.