Moods #65

Jopay | Mayonnaise

Nariyan ka, hindi na ako nag-iisa

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Diary entry as of 8:49

So, I found my phone in the office table, hahahaha :D

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Feels like it is time for coffee/tea? <3

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Feels like it is time for longer rest and longer sleep <3

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Going home soon, I so need to rest, need to recover from sickness

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What is the issue/struggle of the presence in the shadow? Is there anything wrong again? 

Moody nightmare!

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Not good, huhu, I feel like I am coming down with something, like flu or cough or colds :( oh my huhu

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Feeling better after paracetamol

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Hugs my nightmare, going home soon

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Argh, can't find my phone :(

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According to website find my device, my phone is in the office, argh, I must have forgotten to put it in my bag when I was leaving, must be bec of meds, my head is swimming on the meds that I am taking lately 

Moods #64

Happy birthday | Concrete Blonde

I'm laid out on the floor
Drunk and poor
How much longer how much more

Rock me to sleep
Strong & deep

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A love letter to the dead

At the risk of repeating myself again and well indeed I am repeating myself again, to my dear departed dead nightmare, no need to send me anymore friend suggestions to connect in any of my other social media accounts because the physical realm is different from the invisible magical mystical spiritual realm. 

Stay dead my dear darling. 

Here, it is my proof that I am still remembering you.

I am still doing the ritual.

Have a good time today wherever you are.

PS, may the days be kinder to all of us

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Sending all my hugs and cuddles to my one and only darling H 

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💛💛💛

Moods #63

Bakit Part 2 | Mayonnaise

no lyrics this time, just the whole damn song speaks so much

so, so much

 #intense

New Moon

Dark, empty and lots of spaces 

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Log: Just got home, it was a busy and exhausting day. Finally work is done, time for journalling and planning my life inventory which I will start calling as 16-yli project.

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Log: 13 hugs and kisses for my lovely nightmare H

The Truth is: We are all graduating (part 2)

The feeling lately is that of never ending thesis, both the production part and the written thesis paper part.

I remember the thesis part of college was the toughest one, we must really dedicate our time, effort, creativity and intellectual endurance and actually enduring grit to face the challenges of doing our thesis. A whole semester must be allocated to finish such endeavor.

In production part of the thesis, there will be the Pre-production, production and Post-production, these will need a detailed time-table for every part.

Then in the written thesis part, there should be Pre-thesis writing (data gathering, theoretical framework, paradigm and draft of paper rationale), in thesis writing, of course the chunk of the writing will happen here and then, we have the post-thesis, bibliography, editing and checking of the paper.

All these take time!

But as my master said, time keeps passing by, affinities keep ripening. 

So as time passes by, we should have markers in the moving forward of our thesis work.

We should at least have an accomplishment report for every benchmark done.

We had the past 15 to 16 years for all the data gathered, now we have to make sure that the time frame and time table are laid out clearly for us. 

We have to write a thesis for the last 15-16 years of our lives.

Remember, we have to make an inventory of our lives constantly.

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Diary entry as of 4:53

Am I being abducted again in my dreams? Feels so familiar, why am I being abducted again? We can just chat and hang out 💛

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So, someone from a big country is also visiting my blog, hello there, hope you are doing fine, gan en!

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Weird to feel in my dreams being confined in a room with H again. Like all the projections of my dreaming mind is also being observed and seen by H, maybe I am going insane? I know I don't have any secrets from H anymore but even my dreams, my dreams are intimately mine right? Nobody should infiltrate my dreams. So H, you should know boundaries when it comes to dreams.

Diary entry as of 17:23

New moon, new slate, emptiness again 💛

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Hoooooooome

Moods #62

Tingin | Cup of Joe, Janine Teñoso

'Di pinapansin ingay sa tabi
Magulong kapaligiran, sa 'yo lang ang tingin

PS, one week to go 💜

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Hugs my dear darling nightmare, cuddles and kisses for you 🩷🩷🩷

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Still waiting for the doc

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13 hugs for my nightmare

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Hugging my dear darling handsome nightmare 💛

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My sweet sweet nightmare is always in my heart and in my mind 💛

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Hugging my cuddly nightmare 💛💛💛

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13 kisses for me from my nightmare

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Hugs my dear darling nightmare 💛

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Missing my dear darling SO, so much 💛

Footnote to entry "We are all in the dark"

Something I saw while scrolling the net, not my words but just so beautiful I want to share it:

Years ago, anthropologist Margaret Mead was asked by a student what she considered to be the first sign of civilization in a culture. The student expected Mead to talk about fishhooks or clay pots or grinding stones.

But no, Mead said that the first sign of civilization in an ancient culture was a femur (thighbone) that has been broken and then healed. Mead explained that in the animal kingdom, if you break your leg, you die. You cannot run from danger, get to the river for a drink or hunt for food. You are meat for prowling beasts. No animal survives a broken leg long enough for the bone to heal. A broken femur that has healed is evidence that someone has taken time to stay with the one who fell, has bound up the wound, has carried the person to safety and has tended the person through recovery. Helping someone else through difficulty is where civilization starts, Mead said. 

We are at our best when we serve others. Be civilized.

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Dear darling love, you will always be my one and only nightmare 🩷 i love you

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Sending lots of love to my one and only nightmare

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Okay, moody ghost, I am here 💚 Hugs hugs

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My dearest darling nightmare, let's grow together though in different realms (though do you grow as a ghost?)

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Cuddles and kisses to my SO nightmare

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Missing my nightmare 😔

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Hugging you tight my one and only nightmare 💜

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Just came from clinic visit, but the doctor is out huhu, now picking other doctors for weekend schedule

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Hoooooome and resting from outside

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Seriously, is our house transparent?

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The mystery continues, the wizard keeps making deep dark magic

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Just woke up

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Hugs and kisses to my one and only nightmare💜