Interchange #43

I miss you | Blink 182

And as I stared I counted

The webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

Like indecision to call you

And hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight?

Moods #15

 

Writing Prompt: A Letter from Persephone to her friends (20210615)

Writing Prompt: A Letter from Persephone to her friends

Dear friends,

Time has passed, and it has been a while since I have come back in the above world. It was uneventful, actually. It was just the set-up between the authorities who seem to be in control of my life, which means that I am not really the one behind the wheels when it comes to where I should be in a certain time of the year. I have missed the golden ray of sunrise and the fresh morning breeze, so as much as possible I take them in every single day. I have also missed observing the sky when it is a bright sunny day and the contrast it makes when the clouds are about to pour its water to drench the thirsty soil. The sounds of rain and the wind that comes with it, they are almost a revelation when I get to experience them again here above.

I have been so busy with the everyday affairs in the world that I almost forget to update you. It is a rare chance that I get when I can just sit down and write without interruption. When you have only 6 months in the above world, you have to do almost everything in your power to finish all the tasks given, accomplish all the plans, connect with those who are important and build all that needs to be built. As you can recall, I have 6 months here above and 6 months with him in the underworld. It was a difficult task, actually. To be able to cross the two worlds and dwell in them, it must be very magical and mysterious to the eyes of those un-initiated, but to those few who really understand this, it is full of letting go, little deaths, big deaths and inner conflict, it is like losing yourself again and again to be able to relate fully to the world you are assigned in. It is not only losing yourself, but also you have to build yourself again, in a painfully limited time, hoping each time that you manage to keep the genuine parts of you, that you don’t lose your soul in the process, that you don’t forget the principles of compassion, kindness and selflessness that you built from scratch every single time that you regenerate after losing it all from crossing each world. Do I make sense?

For others it is the death of ego, or the self. The self you painstakingly built from shattered pieces, hoping that the most treasured parts are just near so it is easier to glue them back, but if that is not the case, then you have to spend the day or days not sleeping at all, looking intuitively for that part, which is one of the most difficult part of this endless shattering. Actually, there are times when you don’t know yourself anymore, but that’s worse than death, to just walk aimlessly, just raw blood and flesh, missing the most important parts of you, your heart, your mind, your vision, your senses – it was worse than death, I have to repeat that again and again to make sense, or to finally make sense – yes, indeed there are so many things/situation worse than death. So no matter how painful, one is forced to look for those shattered pieces, losing sleep, losing courage, losing strength, but one must not lose faith. This is one of the most important lessons that I learned in this life, never lose faith.

I apologize that this letter seemed a little heavier and darker than I designed it to be. I would really just like to update you my good friends about the reality of crossing the underworld and the (above) world. Anyways, here I am, writing again, perhaps I can say that I have successfully found some important parts of me, making it possible for me to write about it.

And if anyone is interested, yes he stays in the underworld most of the time because that is his place of reign. But of course, as you are my good friends, I will indulge you with a little secret, he can visit the world from time to time, he is that powerful. Actually, he is very powerful beyond anybody’s imagination. From my very limited knowledge of him, he can do anything he deems necessary. He has infinite ways especially if it is very important to him. I just don’t know if he goes through the same self-shattering when he crosses worlds, but all I can say is that he can be everywhere. In many books and myths, he was said to just stay in his dark kingdom, that’s very true but he can also take some time off from his business in the deep if he has very important things to deal with in the above world.

What is really interesting is that, the more one spends time with him, the more he becomes mysterious and unfathomable. He is prone to escalation and intensity – whether it is about any issue, opinion, idea, everything that he finds amusing. He is a very principled 'man'. Passionate and principled, the mix is truly intoxicating and addicting. There are a lot of them attracted and drawn to him, who can truly resist that kind of 'man'?

Well, I have to cut this letter short. I have lots of things to deal with today. Please stay safe and healthy.

Love,

Persephone

 

Moods #14

 

Interchange #42

Somewhere over the rainbow | UP Madrigal Singers

...it is not death, but dying, which is terrible ~

 "Distance of time and place generally cure what they seem to aggravate; and taking leave of our friends resembles taking leave of the world, of which it has been said, that it is not death, 

but dying, which is terrible." 
Henry Fielding
 

Perhaps that’s why the new couldn’t take flight successfully and completely because this period is needed to fully cover the course of saying our final goodbyes to the past and to the old.

I remember posting something about this in February, why it still feels off? Why it still feels something is missing? Perhaps this is the period where a spark of epiphany will finally lit the confused heart.

Let’s be kinder to each of our friends and beloveds while going through this tough time. More importantly, let us be kinder to and more understanding of ourselves.