Everything's fine*

This is very enlightening. If you have time please watch this --->

The power of vulnerability | Brene Brown

A little bit of high school music to lighten up the mood, mmm, well not really. It is actually a rebellious song and for some reason it was playing in my head all night. Must be the mood again getting to me :( Well, anyways, it is still good music. I love it. Enjoy.

*Mother mother | Tracy Bonham

My music filled life

Friday morning, I was feeling so down, I woke up around 5 in the morning. Alex, my housemate, did not sleep at all, she was doing her video editing project. She looked frustrated as she stared at her laptop screen, I felt the need to ask if she needs help and she said, "Yes Ate, i need help with imovie," that line changed the course of my entire day.

I hanged out with her the whole morning, we talked, we laughed, we shared pictures, we looked at adorable little kittens, rabbits, pandas and penguins, we lied on her bed as we wait for the movie to finish exporting, we listened to music, we babbled about boys, girls, everything in between, we had a great morning. She even recommended a song for me and Masa: Jetlagged <3 sweet!

Humming: Make me your radio, turn me up when you feel low (ang sexy ni Adam, syet!) i am so in love with this song . . .


Anyways, so come lunch time, I met with Masa. Then we watched Japanese movie at Cine Adarna and met up with Romina for dinner (she watched the film too).

Then after dinner, Masa needed to go home. Romina and I decided to have tea. And the BIG REVELATION NIGHT happened.

I cannot write here all those exchanges that happened between us, let's just say every single word is very confidential. Compared to morning's conversation with Alex, that one was Girl Talk but this one the after-dinner talk, with Romina my best friend, was Ladies' Talk.

Whereas Alex and I just talked about the interesting specie called 'boys', Romina and I talked about 'Men'!!!
And the perpetual head aches, heart aches and tummy aches they give us (Romina downed two beer bottles right away when in normal nights she cannot even finish a bottle of beer because she does not like the taste of it. Look guys, how you turn our worlds around, so a little sympathy please:)

It is sad that I cannot give details because it involves intimate intimate situations, confidential characters and yes, events that make up our fantasies, not to mention our deepest secret selves that we would not otherwise share with another living soul. Am thinking if it's the tea, the booze, the stars, the moon, the noise of moonleaf or sarah's that led us to this very intimate topic, but just it happened. Am thankful for this weird release though, I feel like supplying wealth of information to my most cherished friend.

One thing I discovered, reliving of memories can be very painful even when the topic is about something fun, (well, maybe especially when the topic is about something fun) some memories will just stay memories because some people are out of our lives already. Shedding a tear or two will not make the pain go away, sigh. I miss the old times. But I am happy that it happened. I love my life right now too. I love Masa and I love my friends, my housemates, my family, my student life. Well, we must move forward and appreciate all the things life is giving us. I have faith in life. I know that everything happens for a reason. And with that i want to end this post with these lines from a song:


I hope life treats you kind and I hope you've got all you dreamed of
And I am wishing you joy and happiness 
But above all this I'm wishing you love

Thanks Romina for a very wonderful revelation night. Cheers to life.

One very wonderful afternoon

Febbie, Ronald and Masa, ang cute nila hahaha!!!

New Moon Blues

Spent the whole day under this dragging tantrum that I want to just shut my eyes and just be alone inside my rabbit hole, but the positive side is I got to spend it with someone very special :)
Well, let's just say I had a very very very bad tantrum that I don't want to socialize at all, so I instead hid beneath someone very special's shadows. I mean I just really let go of all the plans I have for the day and just be. Apologies, my thoughts are still incoherent and I am not really making sense at all, anyhow, here are some of the soundbites that I really want to share.

1. Me: I am so sad. It's like I am so isolated and nobody understands me.
    Someone very special: Mmm, kelangan siguro may stories akong ikwento para mawala yung ganyang     feeling. Ganto, kunyari nagsusuroy-suroy ka . . .
    Me: (Cannot stop myself from interrupting) WAIT, ano daw?!

2. Learning Japanese speak:
    Burger (While at Greens)
    Future (While walking to Pan de Manila)
    SM (While eating at Bodhi)

3. Naaliw talaga siya sa phrase na ito: Infinite na sabaw! ^^;

4. Kapag kasi kumain si Masa parang nava-validate yung kasarapan ng pagkain, for example dinala ko siya sa Goldilocks para tumikin ng egg pie. Conclusion: Masarap ang egg pie :)

FYI: 10 Million yen ang cost ng pag-raise ng anak from birth to University years sa Tokyo, wow man! Investment pala magkaanak ngayon. Siguraduhing maganda ang genes at compatible kayo as parents ^^

I long to be near the beach again.
Oh, waves, be kind to me.

So far this week . . .

1. Watched Shrek 4 and Howl's Moving Castle at Parent's house.
2. Spent at least 20 hours with Mr. Cookie <3

3. Updated my diary.
4. Stayed at Main Lib, Asian Lib and CAL Lib.
5. And right now, just waiting for new moon to come ^^

An almost ending liminal stage

Liminal stage (adj) neither here nor there; transitional stage; being an intermediate state.

Words are hard to capture lately. I was thinking of writing last night, but ideas remained elusive. Well, maybe I will just concentrate on this piece of wisdom taught to us by my good Anthropology professor. We are in a point in our lives called the liminal stage. It is the place where we are neither here nor there. For example, we are studying now (in the University) to hone our skills to be effective workers/professionals in our chosen fields. The challenges given us during this liminal stage is always task-oriented. We need to study for the exam, write papers, do our reports, projects, etc. We are given these tasks to polish the remaining rough-edges in our talents, skills, knowledge and abilities, then one day, after the last marble was smooth out, when the last page of the book was turned, when the last word was written and when the last tear was cried, a door will open for us. Huge, big and bright, inviting us to the future where we will build the dreams and hopes we carried deep in our hearts. I do hope that when we finally reach that stage, we have the capacity for compassion and love to help serve the people around us. It is my prayer that we commit our talents to help save the earth. May we be light bringers!

I want to post a portion of a poem introduced to me by Masa yesterday, it's a poem about women by Marra PL Lanot. Masa liked this poem and actually I liked it too. Prof Lanot was my professor in Film and Literature subject. She is amazing!!

Babae Kami | Marra PL Lanot

"Babae kami 
Nagluluwal ng sanggol 
Na tagapagmana ng mundo 
Marunong kaming umaninag 
Ng hugis ng araw at gabi 
Marunong maghimay 
Ng kulay ng bahaghari 
Marunong sumalo 
Sa kaluluwang babagsak 
Marunong magmahal 
Sa pusong maalalahanin 
Marunong lumaban 
At magwasto ng baligtad 
Habang naghahardin 
Sa ikagaganda ng daigdig." 


Masa's favorite line: Marunong maghimay
                                  Ng kulay ng bahaghari

I got to thinking, how can one fully appreciate poetry when they speak another language? Then I realise, it's like us appreciating ee cummings or pablo neruda . . . Mmm, anyways, I want to post the whole poem but I have yet to get a copy of the book from library. Ah, I really like this poem, especially the line:

 Marunong sumalo   

 Sa kaluluwang babagsak  

. . . saludo ako kay Prof Marra. Salamat po sa magandang tulang ito.

The truth of the moment version 2

I dedicate myself to research.