After getting NO

They say, ask and you shall receive.

Sadly, I asked, politely and humbly in my most vulnerable time, but I was given a NO.

I tried hard.

I was patient.

I wanted to make it work.

But then, it was not meant to be.

Now, I am living here in the consequence of getting NO for an answer.

I have decided already.

I will choose the real one. 

The one I can talk to and talk with.

Especially in my most vulnerable time.

This is my choice.

I have to live with it.