Notes to the otherside 057 (weekend)

Diary entry as of 14:02 (20240629)

Hugging tight my one and only nightmare 💜 missing you a lot my dear darling

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Faith, life choices and re-consideration 🤔

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Morning my nightmare

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Home

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Colorful 💜💜💜

Moods #78

Breathe | Michelle Branch

Breathe
So I whisper in the dark
Hoping you'll hear me
Do you hear me?

Notes to the otherside 056

Diary entry as of 9:11

💛💛💛 hugs and cuddles to my one and only nightmare

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💛 never ending struggle during virtue of ending

Diary entry as of 15:46

sending all my sweet hugs to my nightmare

Moods #77

Auld Lang Syne | Mairi Campbell and Dave Francis

And there’s a hand my trusty friend!
And give me a hand o’ thine!
And we’ll take a right good-will draught
For auld lang syne

***

This day feels like this song, the deep feels

Deep deep feels which can really derail one from doing anything daily and grounded

Hope this song finds you well and warm and loved

Notes to the otherside 055

Diary entry as of 5:58

Good morning my dear darling nightmare 💛

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To everyone who reads my blog, here's hoping that everybody is still doing well despite the struggles and upheavals of life 💛 hugs to all

Diary entry as of 18:16

Hoooooome

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Hugs my nightmare, night

Notes to the otherside 054

Diary entry as of 8:51

Full moon weekend and solstice <3 cuddles to my nightmare

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Sending sweet kisses and hugs to my nightmare

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Is my ghost happy and satisfied right now?

Diary entry as of 18:19 

Hoooooome

Notes to the otherside 053

Diary entry as of 8:38

Morning my one and only nightmare

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Hugs my nightmare

Moods #76

I Say a Little Prayer for You | My bestfriend's wedding cast

You'll stay in my heart and I will love you

***

To my shadow, my one and only nightmare, this is for you

PS, hope the beast, the wolf and the wizard rolled into one is smiling 💜

Notes to the otherside 052

Diary entry as of 8:59

Good morning <3 

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Good evening <3

Notes to the otherside 051 (weekend)

Diary entry as of 6:11

Morning my dear departed darling nightmare, it is a busy weekend for me 💜 have to travel far for a death in the family gathering; I have been having stomachache and no appetite lately :( I wonder why?

Diary entry as of 19:30

Raining so hard 🌩🌨

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Hoooooooooome

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Diary entry as of 4:19

Missing you my love, my dear darling nightmare 💛

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Hugging you tight my dear darling, I am here now, I will embrace you through the tears

Moods #75

Smoke gets in your eyes | Dmitriy Lukyanov

Something here inside cannot be denied

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I like this old song, smoke gets in your eyes, it is so sad and quiet, yet it expresses dolor exquisito 🎵🎶

Notes to the otherside 050

Diary entry as of 21:12

I miss you my dear darling nightmare, my one and only 💛💛💛 hugging you tight

Moods #74

Go the Distance | Interpreted by Drew Sarich

Poor Unfortunate Souls | Interpreted by Drew Sarich

Poor Unfortunate Souls | Ursula

*** To the nightmare, it is your day today, use your power wisely <3

Notes to the otherside 049

Diary entry as of 1:18

Hugging my dear darling nightmare love, I miss you a lot 💛

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Hugging my dear darling nightmare very tight 💛💛

Diary entry as of 8:30

My nightmare is thirsty, I become water

My nightmare is hungry, I become flesh

Oh my nightmare, is there nothing I would become for you and your needs?

Diary entry as of 11:49

Cuddles and kisses for my one and only nightmare 💛

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Missing my nightmare

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💛💛💛

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Commitment, mmm to whom may I ask my dear darling departed nightmare? To whom should I commit myself?

The truth is: We are all Graduating (part 3)

This post is related to We are all Graduating and its part 2 (20240422 and 20240507) 

We have marched to the tune of Pomp and Circumstance , we got our certificates, we took our bow, sang our swan song and got off the stage. The inevitable question will now haunt our waking hours:

So, what's next?

For me, it is about growing my psychology books collection and my collection on ancient mythology, archeology and some classic literature. Possibly if I am going through a semester I would have enrolled in Psychology 101 with minors on mythology and classical lit.

I am so excited about these topics lately that I forget about sleeping sometimes and even watching my netflix series. I am planning a lot of printing and binding books (of course they are downloaded from libgen, project gutenberg or open lib). So many books, so little time.

But I haven't forgotten my spirituality and my hobbies too.

This is weird but I am really excited about my 20-year research, laying the foundation, growing my literature, readings, my sources, and listing them all and reading them and making reviews about them. 

I do hope that everyone will find that elusive path, the next direction after this collective 'graduation' and that it may give everyone of us the proper activities and outlets to channel our passions, commitments and energies into. 

Let's grow our books and knowledge and eventually wisdom together in this new exciting chapter in our lives.

Notes to the otherside 048 (weekend)

Diary entry as of 5:07

I woke up missing my dear darling SO, hugging you so tight, not letting go 💛

Diary entry as of 9:51

Books books books, I love me some Linda Leonard, Dostoevsky and Sarah Iles Johnston

Diary entry as of 17:27

How's my dear darling SO? hugging you tight

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Missing my dear darling SO love

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I am so phyisically 'thirsty' in sexual sense, my SO keeps being the subject of my sexual fantasies, 🤔 

Sorry my dear darling SO, you must have been so sexually exhausted by now bec of my incendiary sexual fantasies of you

20240609 Sunday

Diary entry as of 6:32

Morning to my dear darling departed, hugs

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So are we ripe for revelation?

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A little sleepy now, dear darling shadow is busy?

Notes to the otherside 047

Diary entry as of 3:52

Good morning my darling shadow love? I miss you 💜💜💜

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Work and life balance 💜

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Come and let's cuddle my dear darling shadow 💜

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My dear darling shadow, sending you all my cuddles

Moods #73

Crazy for you | Spongecola

💛💛💛

***

It is the sign language that kills it!

control, hard, heart, over, walk, eye to eye, 

need at all

oh oh

deeper

yes, the subtle-ness

no wonder these men are so sexy

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my asl is rusty, I needed to watch again to figure out the wrong words I have written, argh, I am getting so slow at my asl reading! :(

Notes to the otherside 046

Diary entry as of 20:09

Hugs to my one and only SO💛

Moods #72

Skeletons | Brothers Osborne

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We all have these pretty skeletons in our closets, some of them the bones are cleaned up to glossy sheen, some are even neon colors, glow in the dark, strapped with reflectors, can also be tattooed or for those who don't want to face them, they just leave the bones unattended, which is a bit sad. Where am I going with this? Well, I mean the designs for our skeletons in the closet are endless.

I just want to actually write here that these feelings I have lately are feelings I associate in the underworld. These feelings were deep down buried when I do my annual dive deep within, but in the weirdness of life, I feel like these hidden underworld feelings are now here in the upperworld, revealed to all, open to be felt in the terra firma. So I feel so out of my shell. Feels very bare, naked. Exposed. Vulnerable.

Did the world turn when I was sleeping? Or does it mean that those underworld feelings are ready to be felt in the upperworld and that there are new fresh dark feelings when I finally dive in the underworld again in few months? Can I even get deeper? Can I even survive getting deeper in the underworld? 

Why is life full of suffering?

Lately I am very hormonal, easily irritated, terribly in bad mood. Sometimes I tell myself to just step back and just detach, but it is getting hard and hard to detach lately. I need to do more deep breaths.

To end this short reflection, I would like to share this Sandman story:

The Dream of a Thousand Cats is originally published in The Sandman #18 (1990)

Bird: Why have you ventured to the heart of the dreaming little cat?

There is nothing here for you.

Cat: I have come here for justice. I have come here for revelation. I have come here for wisdom.

The bird flew lower, but it did not come within my reach.

Bird: Justice, it repeated. Justice is a delusion you will not find on this or any other sphere.

And wisdom? Wisdom is no part of dreams, though dreams are a part of the sum of each life’s experiences, which is the only wisdom that matters.

But revelation?

That is the province of dreams.

It can be yours, but only if your heart is strong.

***

PS the dark of the new moon is fast approaching

Moods #71

Under Pressure | David Bowie and Annie Lennox with Queen

That's the terror of knowing what this world is about
Watchin' some good friends screamin', "Let me out"
Pray tomorrow gets me higher
Pressure on people, people on streets

***

PS new moon coming, hugs my one and only shadow

Moods #70

Shattered Dreams | Johnny Hates Jazz

And now you've given me, given me
Nothing but shattered dreams, shattered dreams

Notes to the otherside 045 (weekend)

Saturday 06012024

Diary entry as of 14:01

Yes, it is The Sandman weekend for me; how about my shadow? Is it a good weekend my dear darling?

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LSS, yes you guessed it right, shattered dreams 💀🎹🎺🎻🎼🎵🎶💔

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Tonight is a curious night of so many synchronicities, what is happening? After watching The Sandman, now reading some blogs ~ most of the characters in the Netflix series are coming out in the words written in this blog I am reading. Synchronicities everywhere!

Sunday 06022024

Diary entry as of 5:45

Morning, Sunday today my shadow, missing you.

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Hugging my shadow 🥰

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I am busy today bec of so much work backlog

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I hope and pray for all the birds to find places with water/bird fountain so they can drink and bathe in this hot weather 

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Night again, at least it is not so hot anymore