sigh, i've been in and out of high fever since Sunday night, and i had finally decided to go to ER on Tuesday morning, thankfully the doctors moved so efficiently and they gave me prescription. so here i am still with puffy eyes and with fluctuating temperature resting in the countryside trying to keep my thoughts clear and document some events.
it was actually my first time to have suero, or they call it IV or dextrose. i did not cringe anymore to the thought of needles entering my blood veins, i feel too weak to worry at all. i want to express my gratitude to friends who worried about me, you're sweet guys. it was a feat, i cried so many times after the pain of needle, the little pain that promises good recovery after some hours or minutes. i got to thinking, pain could be the physical manifestation that we are indeed hurting AND that we are trying to do something about the hurt. that pain gives us many different perspective, that pain actually is a catalyst for healing. remember someone said we are hurt because we are humans, it is a defense mechanism, it is an agent for healing, it is a sign that we tried for something, uh-oh, my thoughts are drifting away, must be the meds . . . i think i mentioned before in my entry that we should learn to live with pain, and i will repeat it again, we must try to live with it, face it and hug it, let it in, this must be the only way to a fulfilling life.
a measure of pain, a measure of pleasure, a measure of service and a measure of faith, i believe that can be fulfilling life. once we experience pain, don't hide it, share it to those closest to you, those people who will never leave your side, those who will see the benefits of self honesty. as is said by a wise person, the earth sustains and nourishes its creation. believe.
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