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Okay, I feel like I need to clarify this post

The books I am talking about are the books that I have been collecting and researching and printing on my own because it is hard to find these titles in the bookstores nowadays

I have actually formally subscribed to Scribd bec this website has a lot of books that I need right now

And these books, though hard to find in bookstores and libraries online can be found in Scribd, so I don't mind the monthly fees, as long as I get my hands into hard-to-find titles

And what I mean by new books being given to me, it is the feeling that I get when I have these printed copies bound in our local bookbinding shop

The staff in this bookbinding shop are very helpful and they really do a great job

So far, I have five books bound in our local bookbinding shop

I have more than 30 titles that I am planning to have printed and bound within this year

So, seriously, this is the kilig factor ^^

I have mentioned before that I am committing myself to 2-decades research, yes and this right now is the materials gathering phase. And boy, do I have a lot of materials!

I need to sort them out actually, so I have to update my book list from time to time

So far, the rough titles of my research topic are as follows

(1) Divine Feminine ~ I have titles by the great Joseph Campbell and Karen Tate

(1.5) Lifestyle of women in antiquity and early civilizations ~ Stephanie Lynn Budin, Judith Weingarten

(2) Eleusinian Mysteries ~ I have titles from Carol Pearson, Jean Shinoda Balen

(3) Histories of Sexuality ~ Of course its Michel Foucault, and then Stephen Garton

(4) Plutonians ~ From the perspective of Astrology in Psychoanalysis

(5) Hades Moon ~ Same as above

(6) Psychoanalysis ~ Jung, Freud and Jacques Lacan

These are my titles so far and I have to add some more but I am busy right now so I will update this when I have time

I just really want to make it clear that these books are my treasures right now

 

Interchange #31

You Make Me Feel Brand New | Performed by Simply Red

You're someone whom I can depend

To walk a path that sometimes bends

Without you

Life has no meaning or rhyme

Like notes to a song out of time

Para kay Ekay

Ang post na ito ay para sa 'yo Ekay ^^

At ang link na ito ay para rin sa iyo Ekay ^^

Sana magustuhan mo.

ParakayE

Soul search week

Fangirl mode (lovin' it)

While trashing about the deep dark waters of self-doubt and self-insecurity this week, I happened upon a number of inspiring people who gave me messages (unintentionally) that made me think of life in bigger picture. Maybe what I am saying is that, up until this week I was sure of my path, but came Monday, it suddenly felt like I woke up  on a boat battered by unforgiving storm in the middle of big ocean. Completely unaware, this big storm caught me by surprise. This concluded in almost a week of absence from work, ineffective planning and uncertainty.

First. Words of wisdom from my eye doctor. I had my eye check-up (at Asian Eye Institute) this Friday morning and my doctor was very cheerful. He asked me about laptop sleeve (which I learned, is different from skin). Then I mentioned it was just a gift to me. Then we talked about school, ROMVLO hall and main lib. That he needed to go to Asian Lib to study. That during second sem of 1986, Diliman was closed and classes were disrupted. Good thing he had all those P (Passed) grades that sem (he was graduating that time) because he enrolled full load. And that after BA, he went to UP Manila to pursue medical school. That was a turning point in his life. His story made me think of UP as our community, although I was just born the year he graduated his BA, we have that common impression of library and our mutual happiness about him passing his full load semester (we all know that enrolling full load in Diliman whatever sem it is could be really challenging esp during hell week!)

Second. I attended this community concert held at the Amphitheater which featured Buklod (Rom Dongeto). It was also a date with Fati ^^ She mentioned that it felt like it was a beach concert. With the moon luminously watching over us, the cool wind blowing, good music, audience sitting at the grassy ground, one would think of occasionally running to the beach to soak in its gentle waters.
I feel like I miss being near the waters. I long to be surrounded by it. To renew myself inside its protection. And I felt the closeness of UP community, we all share the love of indigenous music (courtesy of Kontra-gapi) and the music of Buklod along with Tres Marias and others.

Third. The picture above is a rare treasure. When I was in college, I religiously read his column and I finished his thick book about Martial Law in Philippines (Dead Aim) borrowed from Main Library. So, upon seeing him sitting at the side of stage, watching quietly, I knew that I am about to watch two spectacles: the concert itself and his reactions.
The event concluded with Buklod's signature song Kanlungan. What a treat! We all clapped our hands, healed by the power of music. But on a personal note, I know being there was a kind of healing for me. For someone experiencing the torment of searching for self-identity and purpose, finding myself belonging to a community who loves music, who respects diversity, who gather together to celebrate unity beneath the moon and stars through songs and dances, I somehow realized that I after all, am not alone in this torment, that people around me also defines me. That I share their tears, laughters and delight with each song played.
And that I feel like I am protected by these emotions because they feel the same, too.

Divine morning

Woke up to beautiful music that's calming and inspiring. And there was a light drizzle which met my sleepy window as I try to get up from my feathery bed before the sky lit up. A refreshing morning indeed. Leaves dancing at playful winds, birds chirping, plants abundant with morning dew, the earth gently and patiently hugging the rainwater. This is such a delight.

Flow. Amazing word, it can be used to both describe water and air. Movement and freedom. I must wake up early everyday to be greeted by these blessings.

So before the day gets busy and heavy, let's give a moment to convey our gratitude and love to the earth and to people around us and to all forms of life.

Namaste.

Words from Dalai Lama

Giving without Clinging*

As His Holiness the Dalai Lama explains: “Compassion and generosity must be coupled with detachment. Expecting something in return is like doing business. If the owner of a restaurant is all smiles with his customers, generally it’s not because he loves them but because he wants to increase his turnover. In the same way, we should not love and help others because we find such and such an individual likeable, but because we understand that all beings, whether we think of them as friends or enemies, look to be happy and have the right to happiness.”

Oral teachings given at Schvenedingen,Germany,1998.

*A repost of blog entry of Matthieu Ricard, visit him here.