Moods #81

Angel of the Morning | Chrissie Hydne

Through the tears
Of the day
Of the years

Pag(ba)Balik Loob part 4

Lorelei | Cocteau Twins

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To make the ghost happy

Moods #80.5

Paranoid Android | Radiohead

Rain down!

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Lately, I have observed myself to be more tolerant of pain and more open to deeper grieving process, seemingly endless chaos, impermanence. Surprisingly,  to continue the idea of the opening sentence, I understand wider range of emotions (compared to before when I was in my early thirties) and its nuances and its possible origins and trajectory, or if you may, its flow.

Both the depth and width are growing ever deeper and expansive for me. Acting like a double-edged sword, this new found depth and emotional range (width) within me enables me to appreciate different dimensions of emotions, however like a peeled onion, I am more sensitive and soft (absorbing?) when it comes to criticisms, negative moods and darker tones of hard/sharp emotions.

Case in point, I am more appreciative of music and its ranges and its dimensions. I used to just appreciate the surface level of tones and harmony and maybe lyrics, but now I can even visualize the different dimensions when I enter a piece of music. I feel like the phrase entering a music piece is something unachievable and even alien to me, but now it is easier for me to readily use the phrase as I have more of the structural understanding of that side of music. I mean I am not really a music student, I just appreciate it more. I don't even know how to read notes or figure out a musical notation, but I am more understanding of the emotional side of music. Or should I say, I appreciate more the insights of music guides as I try to delve deeper into the discipline/art of music.

Anyways, last night I appreciated deeply this piece of wonderful music from Radiohead as explained by a classically trained musician and music teacher Amy Shafer.

I hope you find her youtube channel as she studies and reacts to different music genres www.youtube.com/@VirginRock

Thanks and have a good listen

Notes to the otherside 065

Diary entry as of 14:56

Seriously? Really? Is there a hidden stalker chip in my phone? 

Slim Olive Journal (part 2)

 

Pag(ba)Balik Loob part 3

Ang Boyfriend kong Baduy | Cinderella

Siya ay in na in ngunit out pa rin

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Dedicated to my weird, mysterious, magical SO

Since I met my SO, nothing in my lovelife/intimacy life is ever normal anymore

Hugs to my dear darling SO

Notes to the otherside 064

Diary entry as of 1:22

Can't sleep. Anyway, yes I might have given away 1 visual journal as get well soon card, but all the rest of my visual journals belong to my nightmare 💛

Diary entry as of 8:46

office as usual, work as usual 💛

Diary entry as of 19:31

Hoooooome

Diary entry as of 22:49

Hugging my nightmare tight and not letting go 💛 

Notes to the otherside 063

Diary entry as of 6:19

So, I am in 5-hour rotation nowadays plus the usual posts of birthday greetings and last is about the age of moon; seriously, what is the meaning of these patterns? Can someone in the US or Singapore explain please?

Diary entry as of 8:31

Office, being grilled about my high school life and why cannot I remember my ESP teacher? haaaaay :(

Diary entry as of 9:50

Oh I love that poem and the movie adaptation was also good, it was graced by Takeshi Kaneshiro, swoon*

Diary entry as of 19:02

Hoooooooome

Diary entry as of 20:31

Hugs to my darling nightmare

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Diary entry as of 9:28

Monday, again

Diary entry as of 15:46

Monday, crazy Monday

Notes to the otherside 061

Diary entry as of 5:21

Rainy morning to my nightmare

Diary entry as of 16:42

On goes the time, on goes the time my bitter-sweet nightmare