We are all in the dark

This morning, while meditating and praying, I had a very deep epiphany, we are all in the dark.

With this I mean, we are all ruled by instinct, self-preservation and primitive urges, not unlike the feral kinds. We are all in a wild state, that's our basic primal nature. We are animals in the jungle ruled by the law of nature. We bring our darkness everywhere. We are basically just animals with developed languages and writing systems (then logic, then arithmetic then philosophy) that we try to routinely follow to make sense of ourselves and the world around us.

But basically we are in the basic wild state.

This idea came to me while I was lamenting how the civilization is currently going through endless fierce reformation and mostly disintegrating. I lament how those that civilizations enabled us to create towers, towns, high intelligence, schools, libraries, museums, (picture all those images that are benchmarks of our mighty human intelligence) are somehow falling apart. Just go through the history of western civilization and eastern civilization, we have accomplished a lot.

But my epiphany was about, the civilization and how it helped in creating the ideal material world right now. The sewage system (if not for engineering, we will still deal with a lot of feces around us while we walk our roads and towns). My epiphany was about, the civilization is not all about expanding and reaching the summit, the civilization is mainly about surrendering the dark parts of us to finally have light hit it. 

Do I make sense?

We are not disintegrating into darkness, we are darkness. We come from darkness. Our basic nature is in the dark fluid of cosmos. And that we are searching for light, to turn the dark parts of us into light. To enable the light shine on that part of us.

The civilization is not failing or disintegrating. It is us who are having difficulty in letting go of darkness. It is us, rejecting the call of light.

I mean, in history we would read a lot of about incest, but since there was revolution in our thinking and morality, we have shed light on the disadvantages in morality of incest. In history we read about wars, but since we have paradigm shifts in thinking and life preservation, we try to lessen war as much as possible.

We are not disintegrating in our civilization, we are just becoming inconsistent and we fail to follow up on our pursuits of morality and philosophy and common humanity.

It is not the good disintegrating into bad. It is bad not wanting to turn into good.

It is not the darkness eating away at the light, it is the darkness not wanting to embrace the light.

We are content to hide in our darkness that we shoo away the light.