Moods #36

Paglisan | Cooky Chua

Ang tanging pabaon ko ay pag-ibig

Something persistent but tricky

Honestly, I was not able to post anything last week because I was waiting for my earworm to reveal itself, kind of like epiphany, or waiting for that aha moment when something finally fell into the right place so I can stitch it into the whole tune, but nada, still nothing, hence no post at all.

Needless to say, up until now, I couldn't figure out what song it is. There are some lyrics in my mind, but actually the earworm is more of music and the beat. I couldn't really precisely point it out, I mean which song it is because it keeps on morphing into other song/tune. Couldn't really single it out. Mmm, it keeps on merging and spilling off into other songs. 

It is hard to pick out.

So, it just keeps haunting my mind when I am not actively thinking about something. It is really interesting because I had earworms before but I could figure it out after some tries, but this one, this one is persistent but tricky.

It is hard to figure out because it keeps on fading at the end but the hook part of the song is clear, though I tried to type the lyrics, it still escapes me. 

I hope eventually I will get the song and post it here but right now it seems I need to concentrate fully.

Will be right back.

Writing Prompt: A Letter from Persephone to her friends (20220615)

Writing Prompt: A Letter from Persephone to her friends

Dear Friends,

I am coming to you from the above world, yes, I am back after months long in the dark. A place of total darkness.

Slowly but surely I am getting acclimated to the above world again. My internal clock has been adjusting and actually a lot quicker than the last time, I should really take note of that. Seems like I am also changing from deep within.

My mind has been so caught up with the fast-paced lifestyle here compared to the almost eternally un-moving 'time' in the world deep under, that I easily lose track of what to do next, so I remind myself to always keep a list of things I need to accomplish in correct order. Little gestures like this can save a lot of pains in the future.

So, what am I going to talk about this time? Yes, I am sure you are so tired of my updates about the difference between the under and above. Also, my dear friends, I know you are tired of the dry descriptive write-up on the space I occupy below with Him. Lastly, you are tired of my endless enumeration of our work-filled routine in both worlds.

Like you, I am also tired.

So, I needed to up my narrative, in what way, well I actually don't know yet.

Maybe, I will just list some of the things I don't want to talk about regarding my stay in His realm.

First, I don't want to talk about HIs profound fondness for drama and intensity. I will not talk about how we usually argue about the things we could have avoided by simply talking and listening and conversing with each other. I will not talk about His complicated non-verbal cues that can really be interpreted hugely differently from what He is really wanting to say or tell. I will not talk about how I cried tears after tears because He meant the opposite from what He appeared to have decided on. During times like those, I just remind myself of the Hero Narrative Formula: there should be a curve, I must expect the denouement here and then the resolution there, but wait, there is another plot twist here, aside from the complicated ego-boosting monologue there ~ see, there is a recipe for his profound fondness for drama and intensity, one should just really devote time to understand His 'story' which by the way, is layer upon layer upon layer, so we are talking about intertextuality of layers of narratives being played out by Him. Just be careful when He implodes, because surely nobody's safe when the bomb detonates. If you really want to understand Him and be His companion, you should go through bomb defusing training and keep your hands steady while you perform the critical operation because nobody can help you or save you when he explodes, I don't have to mention that you 'die' with Him when unfortunately you failed to defuse the bomb. But you can try again, because you see, I told you earlier, it is eternal down there. Word of caution, once you go with Him, you can never ever ever go back, it is a one-way ticket, so be warned.

Secondly, I don't want to talk about His fascination for isolation. That's it. Really. I have no words about this. 

Thirdly, I don't want to talk about His disgust of personal celebrations especially when it is about an occasion that will involve people who will greet you or who will pay extra attention to you. Again, I have no words about this.

Mmm, my list dwindled so quickly, I might need to think of other stuff that I can write about.

Perhaps, I will write about some 'slice of life' narrative from the underworld. Perhaps, I will write about how celebrations are celebrated in the underworld. Perhaps, I will write about Cereberus, the loyal overseer when His master is away. Perhaps, I will write about the full moons and new moons in the underworld. Perhaps, I will write about how to get lost in the complicated underworld and still find your way home.

My brain is now so spent after wringing it out for a drop of creativity. Still there is nothing.

Maybe I will come up with other creative output but tonight my pen needs to sleep in its case.

Good night my dear friends.

Love,

Persephone

Moods #35

Classical Guitar

                                                                             Piano

would I wander through this wonderland alone

The Ballad of Persephone

Ouch ouch ouch

As usual I was busy all day at work and of course I am also busy in the house bec I have to attend to so many other stuff

                but of course, when h

                                                    e

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                                                                e

                                                                      t

                                                                         u

                                                                             r

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                                                                                        s

I have to welcome h

                                 i

                                    m with open heart and open arms

                        (never

                                    ever         ever        let     him     find     out     that

                        you are busy doing other stuff )               when     he     comes        home

        because h

                        e            will make you hurt, suffer and feel so ouch-y

Never for a minute let him think that your attention is somewhere else bec you will feel sharp pain, straight to the heart, plus unexplained heaviness in your heart, body and mind.

a    t    t    e    n    t    i    o    n                     must always be his and his alone

I wish nobody will ever feel it, because I am not sure if someone else can bear it.

Let me tell you some instances where sharp pain attacks:

laughing with colleague/s (he is not happy when I laugh with someone else)

smiling and catching some light break from office work (I have to message him right away when I get a slight break from work, he must be the first one who I think about and who I talk to)

forgetting to message him when doing something else or when going somewhere else (bec i need to update him all the time)

Just think, I am supposed to be away from him because it is the 6 months of upperworld stay, but NO, he is such a control freak that even in the upperworld, I still must submit to him and follow his rules.

Siya ang batas!

Wow!

Okay, I cannot divulge anymore, I must be afk because you know, His Highness is back.

Love,

Persephone